thankful…

…that I got to spend some of my Thanksgiving break with these people.

and several more not pictured.

I am back in Hattie and am excited about the last few weeks of the semester. Lots going on. Lots of good stuff. And did I mention it definitely feels like Christmastime around here? It is so cold outside. And I don’t hate it.  It just makes my hot Russian Caravan tea (smells and tastes like a campfire – not kidding) from Java Werks and good discussion with good friends that much better. For some reason.

A couple of weeks ago I was feasting on the fact that the Lord is my portion, brought to my attention by the Spirit through Mr. Charles H. Spurgeon, as well as a dear friend who led me into a vulnerable conversation that I very much needed to have at that moment (so thankful for God’s providence, it’s not even funny). He’s my whole portion. I don’t care to stop feasting on this fact, ever.

“I say to myself, ‘the Lord is my portion’.” 

– Lamentations 3:24  –

“It is not ‘the Lord is partly my portion,” nor “the Lord is in my portion;’ but He Himself makes up the sum total of my soul’s inheritance. Within the circumference of that circle lies all that we possess or desire. The Lord is my portion. Not His grace merely, nor His love, nor His covenant, but Jehovah Himself…”

Psalm 16

Preserve me, O God, for in you I take refuge.

I say to the Lord, “You are my Lord; I have no good apart from You.”

As for the saints in the land, they are the excellent ones, in whom is all my delight.

The sorrows of those who run after another god shall multiply;

their drink offerings of blood I will not pour out or take their names on my lips.

The Lord is my chosen portion and my cup; You hold my lot.

The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; indeed, I have a beautiful inheritance.

I bless the Lord who gives me counsel; in the night also my heart instructs me.

I have set the Lord always before me; because He is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.

Therefore my heart is glad, and my whole being rejoices; my flesh also dwells secure.

For You will not abandon my soul to Sheol, or let Your holy one see corruption.

You make known to me the path of life;

In Your presence is fullness of joy;

at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.

Also, some songs I can’t seem to stop listening to:

Yes, it’s from Breaking Dawn. No, I don’t want to think of Edward and Bella when I hear it. Precisely why I picked the one video on youtube without their faces : )

I’m so behind. I know. So great!

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loved

See, I have engraved you on the palms of My hands.

– Isaiah 49:16 – 

“I have engraved you.” It does not say, “your name.” The name is there, but that is not all: “I have engraved you.” See the fullness of it! I have engraved your person, your image, your situation, your weaknesses, your wants, your works; I have engraved you, everything about you, all that concerns you; I have put you altogether there. Will you ever say again that your God has forsaken you when He has engraved you upon His own palms?

– Charles Spurgeon, Morning and Evening

beginning of the end [fall semester]

Rejuvenating. That’s the word I keep throwing around these days. That’s how I feel [rejuvenated]. That’s His Spirit! Thanks, Lord. You are good. Even when I don’t feel this way. You’re good.

Game day at Southern, Miami sky, and Fall Retreat at Camp Wesley Pines.

On the plane ride back from Miami a little over a week ago (where the SE Region of Crusade held a New Staff/New Intern training conference), I wrote a list of of things that were humming in my head and heart. Though I haven’t written much about this year (or anything really) here, I’ll just say you can get an idea of what I haven’t been doing/believing/thinking through from this “goal” list. Don’t get me wrong – this has been an amazing semester. His kingdom’s coming. Over the past few weeks, I have just seen my role in it all much more clearly, and how lacking in faith I am. Thankfully, the Lord is faithful always! And with that truth, I am quite content and delighted.

For the love of Christ controls us…

– II Corinthians 5:14 –

Love people.

Set some goals.

Share the gospel with boldness.

Spend time in prayer daily.

Pray for the Spirit’s guidance, walk in the Spirit, and be okay with weird.

Do the thing I fear. Every day, if possible.

Rest and rejoice in Christ’s victory in all circumstances.

Forget about what I think my personality is like. Forget me altogether.

Call, pray for, and care about my supporters.

Challenge the girls I meet with with a kingdom vision for their daily lives and their futures (near and far).

Pray for opportunities to share my story and the gospel. Every day.

Depend completely on the Lord.

Fail.

Oh and laugh. More. Way more.

Ask hard questions with love.

Speak the truth in love.

Seek the good of my neighbor before my own.

Speak gracious words, seasoned with salt, that are appropriate for the occasion. If it’s not necessary and won’t build up…shut up.

Don’t worry about anything. At all.

Make a habit of thinking positively.

See myself as valuable, because Jesus says I am. Can’t argue with Him.

Look people in the eye.

Forget awkward.

Love my team, build them up, be honest with them.

Believe God is working all the time, causing growth, in really beautiful ways and in His perfect timing.

Hate my idols. Pray that they die.

Hold hopes with an open hand, not a closed fist.

Put on love and humility every morning (as I’m waking up, ideally).

Remain at the foot of the cross.

Let my heart be glad.

Forget comparison. Do not compare. Just don’t.

Pray to Him with a believing heart – earnestly, joyously, thankfully.

Dwell on true and praiseworthy things.

Do, say, and think all things for His glory.

All of this takes a lot of grace. It takes grace to love people like Jesus did and still does. I’m very thankful His supply is never ending. Oh, let’s just fix our eyes on Him and want Him more. He is more desirable, worthy, and lovely than our poor little minds can imagine.

He [Paul] lived there two whole years at his own expense, and welcomed all who came to him, proclaiming the kingdom of God and teaching about the Lord Jesus Christ with all boldness and without hindrance.

– Acts 28:30-31 –

Also, here’s a new musical love of mine. They are too cute and quite talented.